I've always loved games. Individual
games, team games, it makes no difference.
I'm sure there are some people who claim they hate
games, but they don't; they just mean that the games they play mightn't be
recognised as such. We all play games.
In the great Indian epic, the Mahabharata, master
gambler Shakuni plays dice on behalf of his family against our heroes, the
Pandavas, the prize being the kingdom both families claim as rightfully theirs.
It's the classic struggle between good and evil, the
identical theme to that of all modern epics of this genre. Dr
Who, Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings – we see them on the big screen courtesy of movie-makers with vast amounts of investible cash, translated from text invisible to 90% of humanity.
Shakuni, the bad guy, has persuaded the demon of foul
play to enter the dice, (made from his grandfather's thigh-bone if I recall correctly), so he and the hundred evil brothers cannot lose this
contest. Amazingly, our hero Yudhishtira must play the game on behalf of his
family – and therefore for the cause of universal goodness and righteousness – in spite
of knowing for certain that the dice is loaded, that he will inevitably lose
this contest, and have to win it all back again another way.
"There is only the game," says Shakuni,
"and it must be played out." Yudhishtira is a kshatriya, a warrior,
and because honour is all, a warrior cannot under any circumstances refuse a
challenge. So he plays the game, and all is lost, including his freedom and that of his
four brothers and their adorable fearless wife Draupadi. Yes, you read
"wife" [singular] correctly – but I'm not here to tell you this story. It just illustrates my main point.
There is no such thing as chance. Shakuni knew it
well, and though he may have had help to win using magical dice made from his
granddaddy's thighbone, the storyteller got it right. There is only the game.
Einstein said the same thing in his own style, and
when I read this as a thirty-year-old who clearly knew better than that old
fogey Einstein (because I was thirty and he would have been a hundred then, were he
still around), I was at the time greatly disappointed in him.
"God does not play dice."
That's what he said. I was disappointed because I knew
the power of this observation in the hands of countless blinkered theologians;
its power to back up fundamentally stupid dogma of all sorts when they didn't
have a clue what he was on about – rather like me at that time anyway. Not a blind clue that
Einstein's vision of God wasn't that of a puppet-master but something vaster
than the universe itself, which at least we now know isn't anything like what
we can imagine. Much larger even than space, time, nothingness and any
other dimension upon which we may speculate.
I was disappointed because I thought at the time that
Einstein was playing games with religion – but of course I was wrong. How could he, as a product of his time and society, express things in
any other way?
This all seems like a huge digression from my story,
but nothing happens by chance you see, so it will all come together, if I have
the time. Time: that's one of the disadvantages of living in space-time and
having to use sensory-intellectual consciousness and those slippery little
devils: words. Finitude within infinity.
It's so easy, and comforting, to accept the notion of chance.
When I play or watch games, I have to believe in it, temporarily at least, or where
would the fun be? Chance actually is nothing more than not knowing enough about
a set of circumstances to be able to predict the outcome.
If we could know the result, we'd never bother to play, except
maybe for money. Then it's not a game of chance; it's a certainty. If we never played anything, we wouldn't be human.
I wanted to tell you here about the game of Yahtzee,
and how it does or doesn't relate to my story, but I haven't the time or the
space. That's a pity, because I think you would like it, if you've managed to
stick with me so far and are still interested. Let it go. And I
wanted to use cricket as an analogy for some things relevant to this ramble,
but... same problem – except that I see now I have covered cricket from a
different angle in another piece. It's not all that bad, now I read it again
[having forgotten I wrote it]. Let cricket go as well.
...which leaves chess, which I also referred to in that
story. Chess and cancer, those are
the games I'm on about, and I'll get there. I will, because now I have clear as a bell in my mind
how this story is going to play out. This clarity from go to whoa is rare for
me, as long as I stick to the rules of the game. Maybe I will, maybe not. You just have to... take your chances.
And this looks like a good place to stop, though I
intended to be much further advanced. If I'm writing, and a man comes to the door who doesn't
look like the parcel man and has PORLOCK on his van or shirt pocket, shoot him.
He once before wrecked the completion of what was going to be one of the best
poems in history, so no-one will blame you. It would, after all, be inevitable, and you might give it a go as a defence at your trial.
My friend Jen always suspected it was Wordsworth bugging him to come to the pub, and that the man from Porlock was bunk. :)ReplyDelete
Oh Mama, I love your [Jen's] comment! If this were Twitter, it would be an instant retweet. If Dylan Thomas were alive at that time, there'd be no doubt about who it was bashing on the door with the pub invitation.Delete
PS Yr friend Jen wouldn't have the initials JB, would she?
This is intriguing..as is the picture of a woman's chest with Einstein swimming on one breast and an alien eye on the other..or do I have a Rorschachish obsession with breasts (as in the breast/cupcake/spaceship light fitting in our Dalhousie cabin). Play up, play up, and play the game!ReplyDelete
My illustration turned out a bit weird, I must admit, but I wanted it to be weird when I created it. It is a bit 'breasty', it's true, and I think quite a few would agree with your Rorschach interpretation.Delete
Pure chance ending up like that, of course. [Chance? Hang on, I appear to be unraveling my thesis.]